One World My World

Dear Diary,

This is my third camp.

1. Boon Lay Secondary School - Secondary One (Chief Charles)
2. ACS Barker Road - Secondary One (Chief Charles & Chief Ziko)
3. Tanjong Katong Primary School - Primary 5 (Chief Mojo & Chief Juni)

When I first went to the Pre-Camp Briefing(PCB). I have my reservation but I was quite happy because I saw some familiar faces; Adam, Hilda, Shu Xia & Timothy(who left early)

It was a Pri 5 camp so I thought being primary school, it is much different from my secondary one camp. I came unprepared. No cheers in my head, no campfire item in my head and no expectation. I just run through the whole event in my head.

I had to wake up like in the wee hours of 4.30am to get ready and move from the west area to the east area. I almost got lost and miss my bus but lucky I managed to be more observant and quickly get down the bus and follow the kids to the school by the side gate.

So Mojo was late. And we receive our groups late and I had stomach ache. Good News; My mirror is Hilda. So both of us like did a few camps so we were like prepared and all. Lucky Hilda knows what cheers to do and all. I just very nicely by the side.

The kids were great but obviously the kids don't wish to be mix boys and girls. I kept getting the names all wrong. The first day was rather tone down. Low elements and all. I have two cases of crying or probably more. Usually I get soft but for this I get rather strong and I told them to wash their faces and drink water and I don't care.

I just pass them to Hilda to settle because I don't care. Its a camp to brace them up and not for me to "sayang" them. Kidnapped at night was rather nice. Our groups came in second and third and we found the casualty very fast. The kids don't know how to do the puzzle though.

The next day many more cases of crying as we did a lot of high elements and some are rather scared of the heights and everything. I did well. I forced them. One of them even says "Instructor, if in England, you force the kids, you will get jailed" You know what I said? I said This is Singapore.

I am rather harsh. My whistle don't scream as much. Ok we get scolded by chief mojo. His standard is high but I like. I hope he increases his level as he go along. I want higher. We get screwed the first night but the second night was relax.

The morning exercise was horrible. Instructors was "forced" to do push up twice more and buddha clap. I can almost feel NS is coming along soon very soon.

Last day, area cleaning was worst. The kids don't wish to work together and no one want to wash the toilet. I forced them to clean and we took longer than usual but it went well. Both toilets is clean and happy. One toilet is choke but its okay as long as it is clean.

The best thing is I get to pump the kids inside the toilet.

I miss my TKPS kids already;

1. Asyraf
2. Hafiz
3. Jen Michael
4. Both Sarahs
5. Jolee
   
6. Huzaifee
7. Alif
8. Arith
9. Shariffah
10. Michael
11. Kinah
12. Razana

And many more....

Instructors went on our retreat to Pasta mania and we eat and joke like mad. It was super duper fun. We play games.

With Loves,
Zulk

Labels: Camp High, Happy Moments

Dear Diary,

Our new office lacks warmth. It lacks a lot of love. Its very quiet and it not at all lively compared to last time. I hope we are able to instill and inject loads of love and warmness inside the new office. I like the decor. The styling. Its very different from other offices. Its feels like an advertising office like what Julia mentioned.

Today our HR is full compared to our last few committee meeting where one of one couldn't make it. HR full other team is empty lah. Its rather saddening that the turnup was rather less. I wanted to talk to kok yeow and myo shwe. I think I have more chance somewhere in the future I guess. Oh gosh I miss Julia so much can.

Eddie said that both of us partners left so both of us will team up and partner up. I want pressies from Japan. I hope can receive soon. Yesterday Veron wear pink office suit. It really look very different from usual and I find it look different. I like her when she wears white.

Ok yesterday Veron touch on one topic. My biggest fear: Commitment. I have commitment issue I admit it. It takes a few people to tell me that I have commitment issue. I just can't commit at all. Veron touch on a few points especially in relationship.

I ask myself how much I commit to a relationship. The rate rather bad. The passing mark is 100% and gosh how much I failed miseralbaly. I want to commit 100% to everything I do. Be it WBG, CHA, relationship, NS, family or studies. I just stun very badly there. Even though Yu Shan and Joyce was like crazy crazy beside me.

I just sit down and really think for myself a lot. What is the things I want truly? I don't have the answer. I miss myself a lot.

With Loves,
Zu:lk

Labels: WBG loves, YEC roxs

Dear Diary,

Yesterday was a Sunday. Well I woke up at 11am. Not so early and yet not so late. Flip through the Berita Mingguan and no articles that is needed for me to do or see. So me being me, I changed channels and trying to find some interesting programme to watch. Nothing to watch at all.

I realised I spend more time on my laptop than watching tv these days. The programme I watch is the 7pm or 9pm and 10 pm chinese show. That is just 3 hours in a day or maybe a bit more. Thats all. Back to what I want to say;

Well Mr Bee and I went to Qian Hu Fish Farm because the fish that we bought earlier on about ten of them die or committeed suicide and both of us don't know what happen to the fish or the cause of death. After months and months seeing the fish dies, he decided he wanted to buy new fishes.

So the story is he was driving to Qian Hu and I was supposed to be the navigator. But I don't remember the direction there, we ended up at Sungei Kadut area and realised we went to far. I call my aunt for help. By the time my aunt is done with the direction, he found his way around and was halfway done.

So that day I failed miseralba for navigating. We went around the fish farm and nothing interesting for the second time we went there. So he bought 5 goldfish. Two different breed. He told me not to name them but too late I already named all the fishes.

1. Alpha
2. Mini
3. Romeo
4. Versace
5. Cooper

One of them is versace cause it looks like a girl fishes, the rest is guy fishes. Change new tactic for the fishes and I want to see them inside de tank. I want to see fishes. It was nice to see fishes. Let's just say he wanted to give a tank and ask me to take care.

I cannot and don't have the time to do it. And we eat at this restaurant and we order quite a bit and the food there very expensive. Two person close to 20 bucks or more. My plate is already 5.50. Hello recession. Can bring down the price of the food or not?

Both of us like cheapo lah. I think we spend quite a bit that day. So we park the car at "illegal" places and leave it there and don't pay. Even we choose not to watch movie cause no movie and I don't wish to watch underworld.

Tic Tock... Time Running Out....

With Love
Zu:lk

Labels: Mr Goldfish

Dear Diary,

I realised my this recent post has all along been about camp high. So I guess, I did have a very good time doing my part as an instructor all this while. I'm proud to be one and happy to be one. Why? I get paid to talk. I get paid to teach kids about things they will learn themselves. Above all, I don't need to do any planning of any sort.

I just need to wait for calls, attend a Pre-Briefing Camp and just the camp itself. And did I said I get paid. I get to meet new instructors, new teachers, new students and new me. One of the instructor mentions that he feels awkward talking to new instructors as he scared he going to say something wrong. Me? I just anyhow bullshit and talk. Interesting right?

Today is not a camp. It a event to me by camp high. Why? Cause we have a pathetic two hours with the kids and yes that all. Two hours to bond and play "kidnapped". This time very lucky I got two Orientation group leader(OGL) to help me. We have like a total of 30 instructors or more to help.

Today meet new friends again or some familiar faces. Me, Dan Ping, Hilda and Sherlyn went back from Boon Lay Sec. Shelly, Reese, Felix, Wen Hao, Shu Xia and John was from ACS barker rd camp. Shu Xian, Shao Yu, Emily and Amelia was from On the job training. I meet new faces along the way also; Adam, Nicole, Naz and some of the rest whom I don't remember at all.

In total, there were like 38 instructors down for the event. It was weird because I thought can have boon lay sec reunion but only a few of us turn up. Me and Sherlyn bonded up quite fast. Shu Xian found new clique and leave me alone. Sad can. I was all the way with Adam, Nas and Nicole. I like their company.

Wah, long story but still haven't get to the main point. Okay. All of us were down at Yishun JC. This morning we saw the other companies took over and I didn't see much. Jeremy told us to be hyper and crazy. I went berserk can. I was runing shouting and going all out. All my brain juice is probably fried up now.

Although we were like the 15 team to come back. Nonetheless, I feel rather happy and I had fun. I got scolded by Joshua but guess what, I really couldn't be bothered that is. I hope I get to do more camp can. One week two camps, I want to be so tired from all the excitement. I want to be with all of them. I think JC kids quite good cause they are those who are either lazy or hyper.

My evaluation form this time quite nice looking, a lot of agree and strongly agree. One of the girl wrote. IT ROCKS. I hope we are able to do again when they go batam again. I sure want it to happen. I never lost my voice but heck.

This bunch of instructor very segregated one. They have their small groups of cliques and once debriefing was over, everyone went their own way can. I don't mind actually. We went to mac and I thought everyone going to eat but everyone just had ice cream. It was cute to see at least 15 instructor eating ice cream lah.

We started our conversation and it went on and on but only lasted one hour max. We kind of bitch about certains thing and certain trainers(I think was most.). We talk about a lot things and it was rather fun but can never beat our pizza hut date with the rest.

The bus ride home was interesting. I don't know the instructor who sitting beside me or in front of me. We all started to talk like no tomorrow. We were gossiping about H*****, S***** and a lot of the other. Its rather interesting how we all guys are able to talk about this kind of things.

I don't know what to say but I'm just dissappointed with someone. haix.

With Love
Zulk

Dear Diary,

I haven't keep track of which day of the Chinese New Year(CNY) is it right now. Nonetheless I do wish all my Chinese or should I say to everyone;

I think that sounded rather awkward right now. Its late entry but its better than nothing right. I did receive red packets for the CNY. How much? I haven't opened any of the red packet givens. I think I going to save it for the rainy days.

It wasn't a great or the best CNY ever but it was average. I did thought of an article in the Berita Harian(BH) yesterday. PM Lee mentioned it was the year of the Ox and it would means everyone in the world have to work like an ox; patience and hardworking cause the economy.

I read my astrology/horoscope while I was working at 7-Eleven during the CNY period. It says that my astrology; Dragon, clash with the ox. So this year is both good and bad for me I guess. There is many opportunities though. I just take it as it is for now.

And just got to watch out for my back and front definitely. I have to be careful this year. I been having rather weird dreams so far. I don't remember but its rather weird.

Tomorrow, I have a day event;2 hours event at Yishun Junior College(YJC) and it rather pathetic if you ask me. I would rather do a 3 Days 2 Nights(3D2N) camp and be so tired and have lots of fun.

Two hours, how much can I give? Its definitely a challenge cause this time working with teenagers and I have to excite them. 18 people. I think I should able to do this. I can't help feeling so very much nervous. I not that excited but I'm scared.

I hoped I'm shortlisted to be one of the 30 instructor they bringing over to Indonesia at the end of this month. I want to be one of them please. Jeremy put my name inside please. I sound so desperate. For all you know, I need to renew my passport.

I hope to go Redang, KL next month before the big thing that is happening in my life. I need a holiday and fast.

With Love,
Zul

Labels: Camp High, Scared Moments

Dear Diary,

I woke up at eight today. Woke up to buy Berita Harian for my "job" and realised today there is no news. Fauzia made it to the front page though. When I read the article, it made me think how she try and try and never give up. Instead she won for herself some thing that I ain't sure that is.

So with nothing to do, I did housework and make my eyes feel better. Yes the living room is damn clean. I feel not that satisfied but I feel like happy. My mother and I like telepathy. Why?

She ask me to go grampy house and pass my grampy some food she bought from batam. And I had to buy papaya. Got cheated 80 cents. Gosh. I feel darn stupid. I'm too lazy to fight with the shop owner.

Gramps welcome me with open arms. (not literally!) My grampy was making currypuff. I was lucky they made the potato version not the sardine version. I don't like the sardine. I think I got phobia of the bone chocking me.

I talk to gramp about aeroplanes, maps and a few other topics. Well he never ran out of topics to discuss with me. While talking, I realised his finger nails very long. So I search for the nail clippers and help him cut his nails.

He complain that his mustache and beard is getting to long. I brought my handy dandy shaver along and help him shave his mustache off and trim his beard off. He looks very much better looking. I'm quite proud of my work.

Bee was saying how patient I am with old people. I do agree with that part of the line. He did give me an idea on how I should help out at the old folks home or something. That did struck me some time last year.

Right now, I'm thinking of I should call Iivi up and help out. Must make a decision and stick with it. Only one problem. Time. How can I manage my time well? God sent me please sms me an answer.

The plan will officially start as of Febuary after Chinese New Year. At the start of Dawn, hope Double Grace will be around and Zulk the warrior starts on his mission for the year 2008.

Wish me the best. Pray for me loves.

With Love
Zulk

Labels: My Gramps

Dear Diary,

Is there anyone even reading this blog? It feels rather quiet in here.. Must be I never put up tagboard!

These was the second camp I instructed/facilitate. This time around is not at Camp Kristine but over at JPAC instead. Its still located over at Jalan Bahtera. I wonder when will I be facilitating over at St John's Island or maybe somewhere overseas. Maybe the time will be sooner than I think it will be.

The first school I did was Boon Lay Secondary School. I thought it went okay and thought it was bad. Trust me, ACS barker road was not a rough journey. I thought being all boys school, it was hyper and happening.

It was not an easy task. I don't like to use the whistle. Guess what, I use the whistle more than ever. I shouted more than enough and I scolded more than enough. Camp is meant to be fun and happening. They? I won't want to say much.

Nonetheless I do love this job a lot, or maybe I just have a flair for it. Two camps with different instructor. Except for BaoYun, Hilda and Jonathon which the three of us did the same camp. I wonder how come Hilda always got camps to do.

I bad at remembering names. So my first camp, I only know their names when we were exchanging numbers. So the three days right, we all were like laughing, joking and gossiping with one another and do not know their names.

Of course, they remember me for being the "Zoo" especially Ms Pooitey. Now, I wonder if camps is the job that I want to do. It was my elements; public speaking, getting to know new people and having fun.

Well maybe its something in the future for me to fall back to. I hope I get to do camps next week again, if not i will die of boredom can at home. Haix....

P.S. I need a digicamera to take photos to remember.

With Love,
Zulk

Labels: Camp High

Dear Diary,

I been gone from 7-9 January 2009. Wow. Its already 2009 and I have a big feeling that January will be coming to an end very very very soon. What did i do from 7-9?

Zulkarnain Bin Jamaludin is finally a true-blue Camp High Instructor! Crazy exciting ****! Before a camp there was this huge hiccups and all. I was quite angry and I ranted out the whole night but I thought of Yanni-Jie's words to forgive everything and I let go. I forgive Charles for I believe its not within his control as well.

It went well really. I meet 15 other new instructors who are crazy and Uber High. Thanks a lot guys. I won't go into details on how the camps work. The campfire was BORING..! Andy fall asleep lah. Imagine Charles was in front of him.

My class won the campfire performances. My instructor and teachers says our was the best. But we didn't win the Best Team. I keep teasing Malcolm about "Sweet & Crunchy Banana". Malcolm was damn cool about it lah.

It was weird for this camp because us instructors ladies and guys was sleeping in the hall together and most of us was snoring. Jonathon was the funniest of us all. Jonathon said "ALRIGHT!" in his sleep. He was dreaming about his camp cheers I think.

And I had to hold a chicken head. How I Squirm and Shout out loud. I had lots of fun and I really enjoy myself well. In this camp, I keep forgive and forgive one thing at a time. One of the campers did cry in front of me. My student was like saying I scolded him. Hey! Not my fault okay.

I feel damn happy. It feels different. I didn't use my phone until at night and our nonsense jokes was neverending. One of them says its their last camp but it will never be last for mine okay. I had my embarassing moments. And bad moments.

I think I learnt how to move on and forgive as much as I feel the load is rather lighter. Thank you guys. I miss my instructor.

Instructor Oi!. I miss my hungry hungry cheer. Cher Cher..

Withs Loads Of LOVE,
Zulk

Labels: Camp High, Happy Moments