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Dear Diary,

**Clearing Cobwebs off the walls of the blog...

Zul has been a naughty little boy this year. Santa didn't give him any present because not only he was on the naughty list, he chooses not to believe in Santa and Christmas. Every year, this happens and sometimes when he is lucky, he gets a gift. (Note: Only One Gift)

Every year, Christmas will be blown out of proportion. Christmas parties, shopping for Christmas gifts and getting excited for Christmas and all for almost everyone (even those non-believer of Christian). Whoever celebrates Christmas, celebrate Valentine's Day also.

Sorry, I don't celebrate any other this celebration at all. And I don't believe in Santa and his elves. So fat man in north pole, take note okay. Anyway I did receive one present from Rose. Sweet. (So am I not in the naughty list or in the good boy list?)

Small Zul says that the end of year 2008 has come by. It arrived and leave 365 days later. Regrets Yes. Forgiveness Done. Anger Fulfill. Dreams Dashed. Life Mundane. What did I do differently from Year 2007? From rate one to hundred percent, only 10 percent difference.

Yanni-Jie, Zul cried out for your help desperately. I want to change this life of mine. I want to be happy. I want less procrastination and more action. I want to change my attitude. I want to to hating some people out there.(Maybe you are one of them). I want to be more brave-hearted. I want peace. I want CHANGE. If I change, people around me will change.

Gosh. Yesterday, I realise what I want to ask my mother for my birthday. I think she will faint when she heard what I had to say. Seriously. I want to be a good boy next year. I think this year I made her cry the most and I blame her a lot this year. (Random: I miss my dad!)

Question: Am I going for the countdown this year? The answer is NO. So many question in my life.

** Side track. This morning I saw a book on my shelves entitle; Leading People by Shirley Gan. I love her so much. I realised I haven't read her book yet. Can't wait for it? I think something will come out at the end of this light.

I meet new people this year. I made new friends and I bonded with new people. I know myself better and above all I made a lot of right decision. Am I happy? Yes. And am I sad? Yes.

Why? Next year, I'm turning twenty one. Everytime I hit as of a certain age, God gives Zul a gift in life and this year, I'm both scared and excited to receive it. I really don't know what he will give me.

Age 12: Gave me the meaning of life and death.
Age 16: The gift of leadership and trust.
Age 18: The gift of acceptance.

This is just a icing above the cake. He definitely give me more than that. I love Him. He kept looking out for me and my family.

This year I want to meet Shirley Gan again. Zul gotten a job as a Camp Facilitator for the next 3-5 months while waiting for NS to start. He hopes to instill Value in Young Children and Young Teenager. Can everything give him blessing to continue on his journey?

Thank you. I love You Guys. :)

May The Force Be With You.

With Truckloads Of Love,
Zulk